Lunch time!

I'm going to see my bf soon :) I'm so happy to hug him...can't wait. I'm content where I am...even though things can be better career-wise and distance-wise but I feel very, very blessed as is.

I'm pescetarian, so my lunch choices are vegetarian or seafood only. I loooove Vietnamese food. I'm praying I don't get fat...

Bun Tom and Cha Gio (Vermicelli noodles with grilled shrimp and an eggroll) and Mango salad.

My adorable nephew. He is too cute for words.

Bun canh/bun bo hue and Bun ca

Dinner with Phuong for her birthday:




I hate banh canh. Yuck.


Miraculous Medal.

2.5 star Bento Box. Made me super hungry afterwards. Food is supposed to fill you up not make you hungrier.


KC

Chuc Mung Nam Moi!

Chuc mung nam moi!!! I ask for your prayers :)

I've been eating out a lot lately: with Jess, Phuong, Fish...*stomach slowly expanding*

KC

We went to temple to celebrate Tet:

Yummmmmy banh xeo (oily and crispy)

Long distance relationships.

Distance is to love like wind is to fire: it extinguishes the small and kindles the great. (Unknown)

I have the longest, long distance relationship I know. He lives way over there (Sydney, Australia), and I live way over here (Orange County/LA, California). I don't believe long distance relationships are for the weak of heart or for those who desire physical bonding over emotional bonding. However, I believe there are numerous "pros" in long-distance relationships ("LRDs"):

1. Heightened sense of communication.
2. Appreciation of time spent together.
3. Emotional connection at heightened levels.
4. Time to pursue individual abilities/careers.

5. The feeling that is everything is worth it b/c s/he means so much to you.

And numerous "cons" in LRDs:
1. Lack of time spent together.
2. The uproot of deep, personal insecurities. (Trust/abandonment/cheating/etc. issues.)
3. Loneliness.
4. $$$. (Overseas flights, mailing packages, calls, etc. LDRs are not for the faint of heart.)
5. Scheduling. (Australia is one day ahead, and his night is my dawn.)

I'm not saying the two categories are mutually exclusive nor am I saying that the above does not apply also to "short-distance relationships." I just feel (in my own experience) that the above are true to a greater extent than in short-distance relationships.

My bf and I both have our individual, active lives. I have lived in SoCal ever since I came to America 20 years ago (with a sojourn in Houston, TX some odd years ago). He was born in New South Wales. I work six days a week. He works seven as well as trains actively for jiu jitsu/MMA (competes in fights), studies to receive his PhD in Advanced Mathematics, and has innumerable projects he handles for his parents/family. I sleep a lot (8-10 hours a day). He sleeps 3-5 hours a day when school is in session. I understand all of these things, and I feel horrible for demanding the time I do from him, especially because he works so ridiculously much. We talk and text everyday, and I know it must be taxing on his time and energy. I am quite stubborn too because I need him to be on the phone when I am sleeping. I seem to have developed sensory abilities, whereby if he were to hang up while I am sleeping, I will wake up :) But there is no other way because I miss him so very much.

I honestly do not know what the future holds for us. However, I am only certain that we will be together. Whether it is here or there, I'll be with him.

And to end this post, I'll be in Sydney next month :) YYYYYIIIIIIIPPPPPPPPEEEEEE!!!

Randomness. Bun Ca (Salmon Noodle Soup) and me make-up less. I used to wear a face full of foundation (I was that self-conscious) until my friend convinced me to stop. Now I wear foundation only to cover red areas.

Sometimes, I am so worried about my future. It stresses me out, and I feel drained. Too much pressure from everything....

You know, if I wish it were easier, then I'm deemed "ungrateful" or "lazy" or "want too much" or I "complain" when I feel (on the contrary) very blessed. You know, I put a lot of pressure on myself to achieve or succeed and be "some one" someday, and that "some one" never seems to have materialized. Sure, I wear the coat of an important person-- the vice principal, an attorney--but I don't see those coats as "some one"...yet. A lack of confidence or insecurity is not what is at the root of these issues. The feeling borders on dissatisfaction, emptiness of soul, and a charade-like "i-tis."

You grow up wishing this and that and (perhaps) innocently expect this and that...but reality is much more of a confrontational slap than it is a slight pat on the back.

Just tired from lack of sleep, I guess. I hope the feeling passes, so I can gather my thoughts around optimism's boundaries.

Bleh.

I've been eating so much lately :) I really wish I were in Sydney right about now. I really, really love my job (don't get me wrong), but a vacation would be beneficial for my state of mind ;) I work 6 days a week (Sundays are such a blessing!)...and I feel like I need a vacation more than ever. We have an interview this Friday to get our international programs approved by INS and SEVIS, and it makes me nervous because it's something I've been working on for quite a while..yikes!

I'm re-starting the attorney work thing with another veteran attorney. I really hope (and pray) things go as planned. I really want to finish paying my student loans off (I hate this burden). I pay twice as much as I have to in order to be finished with it; thus, I have to work twice as hard. I can do so much with the money I pay to Sallie Mae. I'm happy I went through law school, but goshdernit, whyyyyyyy...bleh...

KC

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